Someone can tell you over and over again that that person isn’t right for you. You can spiritually, and emotionally know that this pain isn’t supposed to be happening, but then still continue to set yourself on fire to light someone else’s wick. Often we want to bury all of the dread, or maybe even ourselves, just to make it through another day. And, yes, it feels good to wrap up in the warmth: the familiarity that depression gives. But that is not freedom. To be trapped under the weight of devastation, disappointment and anger as the world keeps turning around you, creates a sinking: a swallowing in the soul. Here lies my blood, my tears, my rage and every fear I have ever had or that has been placed against me. I lay everything that has rocked me to oblivion down on paper. I write the insults and the lies I cried myself to sleep about: I gild each verbal slap in gold and pray that I become lighter with each piece.
ABOUT THE ARTIST
Currently residing in Greenville, Sc, Aquarius Lawson is an abstract artist who uses detail, pattern, and dark imagery to represent the pain and devastation that abuse causes. Since a child, Lawson has used art and poetry to express herself. Most things worth representing through artistic means usually are things that words have failed to adequately describe. This artist seeks to cause the viewer to feel, and to feel deeply. She hopes that these representations of hurtful emotions and situations carry across the notion that pain is universal. Agony and dread touch everyone in some way, and over the years Lawson has chosen new media and techniques to further concrete the viewers perception of feeling through her work.
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